Monday, October 11, 2010
It's been a difficult week. emotionally. Dave started his new job and even though things are going well, it wasn't pitch perfect. I spent the week getting the house together, applying for jobs, and starting my course work. This whole process has really taken a toll on me. I really expected that we would be receiving calls about the house and I would be getting call backs on the jobs I'm applying for. While everyone says it's only been a week, it's been a week that I don't know how to define myself. I'm in a house with two dogs cleaning, I no longer have a job and this is a tough concept for me to handle. I get that it was our decision to leave, and I still think its the right one, I just wish everything was falling into place. I wish I had a job, I wish I wasn't stressing out about everything. I break down crying daily. I feel lost on this path. We had an open house on Sunday and had 4 groups and no offers. I'm hoping next Sunday will be a better showing. Its been really tough and I'm hoping this week brings much more hope.